Asa Bercerita

Oh Allah! I told You I'm in pain You said: "Do not despair of the mercy of Allah." (Al-Qur'an 39:53) I told You nobody knows what is in my heart You said: "Verily, in the remembrance of Allah do hearts find rest." (Al-Qur'an 13:28) I told You many people hurt me You said: "So pardon them and ask forgiveness for them." (Al-Qur'an 3:159) I told You I feel I'm alone You said: "We are closer to him than (his) jugular vein." (Al-Qur'an 50:16) I told You my sins are so many You said: "And who can forgive sins except Allah?" (Al-Qur'an 3:135) I told You do not leave me You said: "So remember Me; I will remember you." (Al-Qur'an 2:152) I told You I'm facing a lot of difficulties in life You said: "And whoever fears Allah, He will make for him a way out." (Al-Qur'an 65:2) I told You oh Lord! I need hope You said: "Indeed, with hardship (will be) ease." (Al-Qur'an 94:6) I t

Hope. It should be the thing that brings us forward, right? But what if hope, is also the reason why we can't stop worrying? What if it is also why we can barely focus on other thing, which actually is also important, which is also another part of our life goals. I had hope. And I still have hope today, despite the fact that it is killing me inside. I can't stand seeing myself failing because of this hope inside me. I just can't. Or maybe I actually can. What I can't stand is probably seeing my loved ones disappointed with my result, with my failing. I can't stand seeing them trying to cheer me up by saying something like "next year will be yours" or "it is only one of uncountable opportunities waiting for you". They encouraged me before, many of them believe I'll get my success, and... it is just so hard for me to see them treating me differently. I sometimes worry, but never this intense. I've never been worried until I don't want t

One per cent. The thing is always insignificant, but affects every life living in the whole world. For example, our financial life depends on what so-called as inflation (or deflation). Every single per cent means new tactics of living, especially for those who aren't lucky. One per cent can also be spectacular, unimaginable, something people always dreamed of. I didn't take a look at any statistics, but who knows? Maybe one per cent is a number that represents people with really genius brains. Maybe there are one per cent of seven billion people who have the IQ above 200. We never know. Bur what if, one per cent is what makes you never get your freedom? Freedom here can mean every thing; in social life, equality, etc. It can also be far nearer to our own self, yet more complex; freedom from our own mind. Well, after all, one per cent is probably what defines people. We always struggle to be the only one; without thinking that isn't always an important thing, and more impor